So as you know it's Wednesday again.
Wally World again.
Mom has already informed me of that wonderful bit of news. LOL
She has me a bit worried. She is quitting smoking again, which I am THRILLED about! I know that after 48 years it really doesn't make all that much difference, I mean she already has COPD (chronic obstructive pulmonary disease), which includes emphysema, asthma and bronchitis, and has previously had a heart attack. But even so, she is on oxygen and shouldn't smoke.
So, when she does this she gets weird, well she's weird anyways, but it gets worse. While I was cleaning her house yesterday, she kept falling asleep at the table. While talking to her, she would fall asleep. You know when you go to the nursing home and visit a relative, and they are really old they just drift off. Well she was doing this. I know better than to say anything to her, she bites my head off when I do.
That's another thing, she has been really snappy lately. No, not due to the not smoking thing, yesterday was the 1st day.
I know that most days she doesn't feel good. I know that getting old and living with the daily aches and pains are not the best in the world. I know that being house bound really sucks, but she does that to herself. She won't lose weight, says it's to hard, and without being able to move alot hampers her in this. Well duh, when you sit all day, yeah it's going to be hard to get up and run all over the place. But it all starts with one step right? I'm not asking to move the mountain in one day. All I'm asking is to move a little. Which is why I don't do every bit of everything in her house. I have to let her do some things, or she would simply sit at the table all the time and do nothing at all except get up to go to the bathroom, let the dogs out, or get something to snack on.
And thru all this, she gets very snappy with me. And I do mean to the point where she almost brings me to tears. And I think, hmmmmm I stay here for this? Don't get me wrong, I love my Mom beyond anything. I am the only one here for her. I understand that sometimes you lash out at the one closest to you. But gee whiz. I too am doing the best that I can.
Then sometimes she says the most inappropriate things. We will be talking about normal every day things, and she spouts off with the most atrocious language. Which my Mom hasn't always had the cleanest mouth around anyways, but even so.
I know she possibly has had a stroke, but short of tying her up and carting her to the doctor. She refuses to go. Period.
My kiddo says she doesn't know how I do it. I don't either sometimes. I just put my head down and keep on keeping on.
So. I suppose this is my gripe today.
Kenny is off vacation today. He had a blast with his family. I was laughing at him so hard yesterday, I told him these 9 days spent with just his family has his accent showing again. It's actually always been there, just more mellow. It's not so mellow right now! And I love it!
I hope everyone has a wonderful hump day!
Hugs
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