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i've kept my feelings shut for so long
excluding myself from the rest of the world
hiding inside a box
as loneliness consumes me
no one to hear me cry out
no one there to witness each tear drop
my emotions, i have hidden so deep
avoiding the pain that lies within
each day, i am walking around and floating everywhere
no sense of purpose or reason to live for the moment
work has been my theraphy
trying to erase and block my true emotions
putting them aside
my spirit is at its weakest level
i am not capable of fighting
my own demons
daily, i come across many faces
yet i am the most loneliest person here
i have shut my heart close
unwilling to heal from the pain i have endured
it is only pouring out bitterness in return
it has lost touch of the true meaning of what love is
no longer is it able to pour out happiness, tender care or genuine love
but no matter how much or how hard we avoid love
its impossible to do so
for it is the main purpose we live each moment
the main reason of life
we never can close off from love
even if we try to deny it, no matter how hard we run away from it
it will always remain in the present sight
just maybe.... this is the one thing that i am missing
to feel genuine happiness once again
to see that light from the dark place
someone to pull me through
for i am not able to do alone
this is the one thing that i keep shut
the most important thing in life
but... i dont blame myself for it
i have lost it.... from the pain that it has caused me
but i know...
in time... i will grasp hold of it once again
and this time...
it will be eternally for a lifetime
it will be the one
the moment of truth
God himself will reveal it to me
its just a matter of my decision
when i am ready to accept it
he will eventually let me know this time
it wont be my ignorant, stubborn mind
it will be his
i will follow his path
and he will make me come across love
in his timing
as i wait patiently
for that someone to rescue me
from this abandoned place in my life
one i will never put myself through again
God bare with me. help me
all i need now is your Love
and one day you'll send him that i was intend to be with
and will replace the love you have given me
as i get closer to you
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Posted by 0n3_0f_a_kind on 2008-06-28 03:01:04 | Rating: | Views: 65
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