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yesterday i witnessed the celebration of a new life together
i was happy to be a small part in their new chapter of life
when you are bind to be one, the love is much stronger
being a part of a wedding, its always bound to be a happy event
where everyone is enjoying themselves and smiles are shown all around the room
while i was there, i had an encounter with someone i lost touch with
someone who kept me in line and in check as i was growing up
she knew me well, probably knew me better than i did myself
she's my spiritual mom who confronts me and speaks truth
planting seeds into my life
when i went to say hi to her on her table
she ask me to sit with her for awhile so we could talk
the one question that stood out the most
which almost brought me to tears, i held it back as hard as i could
one i couldnt answer right away
deep down, she knew the answer to this question
but wanted to hear it from my own mouth
but she asked me straight in the eye
are you really happy?
i hesitated with a pause... unable to tell her no
so i said i am semi.... but deep down... i knew i wasnt and i was only fooling myself
she went on... and she asked me this
what is your purpose? your destiny?
then again... i was left without words to say
so i told.... that i am unable to answer this question right now
but i knew she knew what i was going through
she knows the battles i face
she can sense it from a distant and i couldnt hide it from her
for she is a woman of God
all i know is... she is a phone call away
just writing about this... i can feel water right through the side of my eyes
as i try to hold it back
the truth of the matter is..
one day... i'll stop running away from God
someday... i will find my way back to him
theres this gap in between us that i cant seem to get pass through
i need that other hand... who can pull me through the gap
who will be the one to help me climb over this mountain
for i am a lonely soul
that no one bears to know what lies beyond what meets the eye
i have no idea what genuine happiness defines to
i would have to say... i have experience temporary happiness
one that is substituted by materialistic... by money... glam... luxury
this definately does not define what true contentness is all about
in this lifetime... i will figure it out
i will one day live it... its just a matter of being patient enough and holding on
when will this time be?
this moment.... one i will cherish and remember
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Posted by 0n3_0f_a_kind on 2008-05-27 04:54:46 | Rating: | Views: 32
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